Have you ever been in a place where you sincerely want to trust God, but experiences on this earth have taught you that you can’t trust anyone?
How do you move forward when you realize you are holding back from the One who can truly heal your broken heart?
Today on the Podcast you’ll find just a few minutes of encouragement as I share my story of realizing I wasn’t truly trusting God, what I did when I faced that truth, and the journey He took me on to help me learn to trust Him.
Podcast
You are listening to Abide in Jesus, the podcast for women who want to experience Christ healing touch in their lives. I’m your host author, Carolyn Rice. And in this episode, we’re going to talk about what do you do when you just really don’t trust God?
Realizing I Didn’t Trust God
There was a time in my life where I was so broken and I wanted God’s healing so badly.I had heard that healing comes from the word. And so, I wrote down scriptures on healing. I had a big pile of them and I looked at them daily in my office. I would just flip through these verses and read scriptures about God healing the broken hearted and how God could heal my heart and how God wanted to heal me.
And that so helped me. But one day I was flipping through the scriptures and in my spirit, I heard the word so loudly trust trust.
And in that moment, I realized I wanted God to heal me, but I didn’t really trust God. Experience had taught me not to trust anyone. And I realized that that is an area where I needed to grow.
I got down on my knees and I confessed to the Lord that I did not trust him. I said, I am having trouble trusting you. I am angry. I am bitter. I am afraid. Would you come into these places where I do not trust you? And would you help me to trust you? Would you teach me to trust you?
A Daily Prayer
And I just began to cry out that way to God day after day inviting Him in.
I invited the Lord into those inner places where I had locked the door to him or anyone and, and even myself, I didn’t even want to look at those places myself. I invited him into those places, and I said, “Lord, I choose to trust you. Your word says that I can trust you experience has taught me that I can’t trust anyone because of what I’ve gone through. But, I thank you that you are good and you are not like the people who abused me. And so, Lord, I invite you to show me who you are. Take me on a journey of showing me who you are.”
And the Lord met me there. He met me there. And when I was just honest with him and invited him in and told him how I felt, he answered that prayer.
What I want for You
So dear sister, I want you to realize that the Lord knows you better than you know yourself. He already knows if you are having trouble trusting Him. So just be honest, you’re not going to make him mad, the ceiling is not going to fall on you if you decide to be, truly honest with God and ask him to help you trust.
And I just want to leave you with this verse 2 Samuel 22:31 in the NKJV. It says
as for God, his way is perfect. The word of the Lord is proven. He is a shield to all who trust in him.
Dear sister, I pray for you that your trust in the Lord would grow. Just as my trust in the Lord had to grow. I had to overcome the experiences that taught me that I couldn’t trust God. And the Lord took me on a journey of remembering things that happened where God showed me himself And , taking the word of God that said I could trust him and looking at those scriptures on trust. And flipping through those scriptures and trust.
Can I pray for you today?
father God, I pray for my sister in Christ. And I thank you, father, that you would go into the deepest places of her heart, that you would be gentle, that you would show her father that you are not like those who have hurt her. Show her who you are. Break all the lies of the enemy off of her mind, that say you’re there to thump her or judge her or be angry at her. Father, I pray that you would show her that you love her, but you have compassion for her that you were for her and that you want to heal her broken heart. I pray this in the name of Jesus. Amen.
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